It's Spring Break time, but it doesn't feel like it at all. Last week the weather felt like spring break weather - it was sunny and warm. Yesterday we had a dust storm that resulted in a brown out. No one could see the mountains and everyone stayed home. Today, it was windy and hailing. It is supposed to get a little better as the week goes on, but more than annoying, it is weird. It really does feel like the apocalypse.
I've also been working like a dog. I think I've worked more so far this week than I normally do in a week. This dissertation business sucks. I thought I would like being out of coursework and doing my own work. But it doesn't feel like my work anymore and I have no real emotion about it. All I want is to get it done. It's also the most isolating work I've ever done. It's hard to talk about with anyone who isn't right in the midst of doing it. I work on it and then I think about it and thinking too much, ironically, gets me into trouble. For once, I actually miss having conversations with people about ideas and what kind of work to do. Now I get ready to write alone and get done writing alone. And nobody is every going to read it anyway.
Some days it all feels like bullshit.
But before you feel too sorry for me, or think I am turning into a whiny, little bitch, I did have a great day in Albuquerque on Saturday. And I have plans to go golfing tomorrow (if the weather doesn't continue to be biblical). Maybe I'll see 21 Jumpstreet. I mean, who knows. It's supposed to be Spring Break.
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Also, I have to do laundry...yippee!
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